1 litre of tears

last monday, i had some leisure time..
so i watched this japanese movie, 1 litre of tears..

it was a story of a girl who was chosen by this strange disease..incureable disease..one day, she started to walk unstably..and time to time, the likelihood of her falling increase..then she had difficulties in position herself and other objects..then she was be unable to write properly..following that, she was not be able to speak properly..for her, eventhough the progress of the disease is slow, it just get worse day by day..so sad..but, i was really touched when  she wrote something like this..

i won't be impatient
i won't be greedy
i won't give up
because everyone takes things step by step
i'm not the only one in pain
not havng other people undestand
not undestanding others
both of those are awful
my life is like a blossoming flower
from the start of my youth
i want to have no regrets and treasure it
mom, in my heart
there always exists the mother that believes in me
from now this point forward, i leave it to you
i'm sorry for always making you worry
this disease, why did it choose me?
fate. it can't be put in words
you really can't make people accept it
i want to make a time machine to go back to the past
if it wasn't for this disease
maybe i could have succeeded in love
i want to be hugged tightly by someone
i really want to be
i already don't want to say that i want to go back to that day
i want to accept the me right now
and live on
eventhough i will also be hurt by those heartless glances
but also, i understand that at the same time gentle glances exists
eventhough it's like this, i still want to be here
because here is, the place that i exist
what's wrong with falling down?
because as long as i stand up again it'll be just fine
if you look up at the sky after falling down
the blue sky is also today,
stretching limitless and smiles at me
people shouldn't dwell on the past
it's enough to try your best in all that you're doing now
mom, will i be able to get married?

that story..was almost the same that happened to one of my bestfriend..we were both from the same primary school..we both even received the best student award in 2001..but when she was 21, she died of incureable disease..the current medication technology on that time cannot cure her disease..a few days before she passed away, i called her..but i dunno that was the last time i talked to her..before she was in a coma..and gone forever..she asked me, why was the disease chose her..she suffered alone..i dunno what to say to her, but tried to calm her..then she thanked me for everything, for all these years, for the last time..she said that she was very happy knowing theres a friend who always cared for her, even she was in very a bad state..she really appreciated it..whenever she thought about the future, tears would be coming down..at one time, the doctor even had to make a hole on her neck to feed her..shes suffered enough..the time had come for her..at last shes gone to the place where theres no more tears..

God loves u more..i'm sorry..

T_T

note:

sometimes u will never know the true value of moments until it become memories..

making a hundred friends is not a miracle..

the miracle is to make a single friend who will stand by your side

 even when hundreds are against u..

gunung lang

kini dah hampir 2 minggu bpuase..mcm2 blaku dlm bulan ni..sronok sbb bile waktu azan maghrib tggu dpn tv1 nk dgr azan..pastu mcm2 lah iklan tv contohnye iklan kurma yusuf tayob ucap selamat bpuase..hehe..bile azan berkumandang pastu cpt2 berbuka..mlm2 plak dpt pergi semayang terawih, tgk ramai2 semangat nk buat ibadah..

ermmm..tp sedihnya..jauh dari kluarga..dan....hati rindu pd seseorang....hampir setiap hari pergi bazar ramadhan..tp penyudahnye bile blk umah sewa x beli ape2 pun..kwn2 pun kdg2 bertanye, tgh diet ke? sbnr nye xtau nk mkn ape..xde selera..berbuka mkn kurma ngn minum air je pun dah terase cukup..kdg2 klo lapar pun mkn oat ngn susu je..

bile weekend haritu, kwn2 pun blk rumah masing2..sy pun tinggal sorang2 je kt umah sewa..xde org..rasa teramatlah sunyi..bile terase sunyi ni org kata walaupun tgh mkn ayam pun terase mcm mkn ikan bilis..kenape mcm ni ek? hmm..rindu ke? selalu mimpi kn dia bile tdo mlm2..bile tersedar dr tdo pun teros bayangkan dia lg..awk, sy rindu..

lalu pd hari ahad yg lepas, petang2 tgh2 puase, berangkatlah sudah ke sebuah gunung utk mencari ketenangan..sendirian..sedih pun simpan dlm hati je..bkn ade org kisah pun..huhu..tp kt ctu mmg seronok..tenang..dpt menikmati keindahan ciptaan Tuhan..terkesima melihat keagungan ciptaanNya..buat seketika hilang keserabutan dlm fikiran..kalaulah dpt menikmati perkara mcm ni selalu..mesti indah kan..

beberapa gambar yg sempat sy amek sebelom kehabisan bateri kamera..hehe

air terjun :)

luas pemandangan..boleh naek bot untuk pergi ke pulau

rse mcm nk terjun je..hehe

peace~  v(^_^)..

note:

in life you will realize that there is a purpose for everyone you meet..

some will test you..

some will use you..

and some will teach you..

but most important are the ones that bring out the best in you..

 those are the ones worth keeping around..

 =)

^__^

jadilah seseorang yg hadirnya dinanti

dan perginya dirindui

kerana mencari seseorang yg jujur dan setia

ibarat mencari permata disebalik timbunan kaca

ramadhan 2012

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note: tingkatkan amal dibulan yg mulia ini. :)

"make someone smile today

may it be your charity

and may somebody pay it forward

and make u smile

the day u drown in dismay"

@h.l.o.v.a.t.e.

=)

missing happiness

happiness, loneliness, laughing

weeping, joy, only one

holding u in my arms

no problem..it's alright
u can cry out as u like

believe that u aren't alone

everyday that i can't catch up

the whirlpool of words

the storm of feeling

fighting each other and making me confused

you're willful and hate losing

filling with love more than anyone
your favorite summer has come

so raise your head

happiness, loneliness, laughing

weeping, joy, solitary

tears have more than one color

look,

there is the rainbow

 hope tomorrow will be sunny

u cry just like u can't breathe

i hold u in my arms

no worries..it's alright

 u can cry out as u like

believe that u aren't alone

::: p/s: i miss u :::

anonymous

there are so many people out there

who will tell u that u can't

what u've got is turn around and say,

"watch me"

quotes

two things help success in life:

the way you MANAGE when you have nothing..

the way you BEHAVE when you have everything..