--loyal--alone--

i know almost everything..

hiding the truth will juz make me sad..
even the truth meaning pain..

but sometimes i hv to make it like i never know it..

coz if i didn't think like that,

it will hurts more..

i dun want to think,

but it will juz make me think about it more..

its so hard..

so painful..

am i so that loyal?

i even dumb all girl who try to approach me..

some people say i'm a player..
it is so untrue..
i dun hate girls,
i juz dun want to play with their heart, their emotion..

but i hate girls who want to make me more than friend..

i dunno why..

i will not falling for any girl anymore..
i dun want to easily trust people like i did before..

i dun want to fall in love..

plz dun ask why..

i'm not gay..

i juz feel its not the time yet..

i hv to rebuild my life..

alone..

i hv lost lots of time..

i'm not a perfect man..

therefore i know where i stand..

i will work hard to achieve my dreams..

and need lots of prayer too..

i trust my only God..

coz God knows better and the best for me..

always...