All For Love

quite sometime since the last time i was home

miss my home
miss ipoh
miss my family
miss my friends
miss her
miss the old days

When there's love inside
I swear I'll always be strong
then there's a reason why

all for love

i am strong

strong people always hv their life in order..

even with tears in their eyes they still manage to say,

"I'M OK!"

with a smile

what would u do?

one day, met an old friend and had a conversation like these..

A: my friend, long time no see..how r u?

B: not doing so well..juz got back from hospital..

A: hospital? why? what happen to ur hair? look like its dying..

B: yes my friend..i juz doing my chemotherapy..coz there is something is growing inside me..its getting bigger day by day..

A: is it what i think it is?

B: yes..i got cancer..i have tried everything, lots of medicine..but its not working..doctor said it already stage 2..dunno till when..but i got a few months left..i haven't seen anyone for quite sometime..i dunno how to tell my family, friend and my love one..

its a real conversation between me and my friend..

if u had these conversation, what would u do? would u cry?

:: p/s: pray ::

Unwritten

I am unwritten, can't read my mind, I'm undefined

 approaching stalling symptom attention,
 speed reducing
high nose attitude
sloppy control
stall warning comes out
light buffet
heavy buffet
sinking

 anything happen, pls recover, coz theres not much time..


::: p/s: can't read my mind..it almost there...  :::


 

holding

 

 

 

 

lifes getting harder

lifes getting so competitive

the fundamental must be strong

 

remain silences

holding..

stand up for myself even if it means standing alone

even sometimes feel like losing my sense
but its a must
living to survive

one day
time will come
ordinary thing maybe not enough
it will take a whole new level to face it

and for now
be prepare
learn a lot
experience the misery
so that one day
the path will be lights beautifully


p/s: patient


 



a missing day

its suppose to be the special day..

i really wanna say to u,

happy anniversary dear..

i miss u..

but..

shes not mine anymore..

i cannot be selfish..

its for her own happiness..

i really wanna see her happy..

i do..

coz i really love her..

and i actually dun want she become depress bcoz of me..

sincerely,

of coz i wanna be the causes of her smiling..

and her happiness..

but it seems like i'm not the one who always in her heart..

to always be the guy that she trust..

and she admire..

not anymore..

its my bad..

i'm sorry my lovely miracle..

i have to make u hate me..

coz i want to test u..

its not something that i like by making u hate me..

i want to see wether u really understood me after 12 years of friendship..

by knowing me everything from inside and outside..

do u really think i will suddenly become a bad guy when i'm the one who care for u and give my love when u needed before?

do u felt it is so weird or u really thought i would suddenly easily change..

or still believing the man that will put everything on the front line juz for u..

juz like before..
everything is up to u my dear..

i know..
i'm not suppose to do things that hurt u..

not like what i have done..

but i think that is the way to see how ur responses towards me..

coz theres something important i have to see it myself..

i hope one day u understood the reason why i did all these..

i never force u to understand the real me..

but these inside of me..

someone u knew before..
whats inside is pure..

hate u not..
care is more..
offence not..
coz love is more..

how deep is ur love?

::: p/s: love & miss :::

the project X

X

today i went there..

i can feel the aura..

its something big..

but wait..

i must be patient..

its for next year..

time passes..

is it a lucky draw?

can't tell..

juz try my best..

but 1st i have to be away from others..

to find some peace..

even my fmly..

juz for a while..

sorry..

coz i need it..

but the intention is to be nothing to something..

and become from no one to someone..

hope is something that i need..

miracle is something that i want to create..

the puzzle is something i want to solve..

dear God, plz help me..

i always need U..

thank you God for showing me some path..

plz guide me.. :)

::: p/s: miracle, plz happen :::