what would u do?

one day, met an old friend and had a conversation like these..

A: my friend, long time no see..how r u?

B: not doing so well..juz got back from hospital..

A: hospital? why? what happen to ur hair? look like its dying..

B: yes my friend..i juz doing my chemotherapy..coz there is something is growing inside me..its getting bigger day by day..

A: is it what i think it is?

B: yes..i got cancer..i have tried everything, lots of medicine..but its not working..doctor said it already stage 2..dunno till when..but i got a few months left..i haven't seen anyone for quite sometime..i dunno how to tell my family, friend and my love one..

its a real conversation between me and my friend..

if u had these conversation, what would u do? would u cry?

:: p/s: pray ::

Unwritten

I am unwritten, can't read my mind, I'm undefined

 approaching stalling symptom attention,
 speed reducing
high nose attitude
sloppy control
stall warning comes out
light buffet
heavy buffet
sinking

 anything happen, pls recover, coz theres not much time..


::: p/s: can't read my mind..it almost there...  :::


 

holding

 

 

 

 

lifes getting harder

lifes getting so competitive

the fundamental must be strong

 

remain silences

holding..

stand up for myself even if it means standing alone

even sometimes feel like losing my sense
but its a must
living to survive

one day
time will come
ordinary thing maybe not enough
it will take a whole new level to face it

and for now
be prepare
learn a lot
experience the misery
so that one day
the path will be lights beautifully


p/s: patient


 



a missing day

its suppose to be the special day..

i really wanna say to u,

happy anniversary dear..

i miss u..

but..

shes not mine anymore..

i cannot be selfish..

its for her own happiness..

i really wanna see her happy..

i do..

coz i really love her..

and i actually dun want she become depress bcoz of me..

sincerely,

of coz i wanna be the causes of her smiling..

and her happiness..

but it seems like i'm not the one who always in her heart..

to always be the guy that she trust..

and she admire..

not anymore..

its my bad..

i'm sorry my lovely miracle..

i have to make u hate me..

coz i want to test u..

its not something that i like by making u hate me..

i want to see wether u really understood me after 12 years of friendship..

by knowing me everything from inside and outside..

do u really think i will suddenly become a bad guy when i'm the one who care for u and give my love when u needed before?

do u felt it is so weird or u really thought i would suddenly easily change..

or still believing the man that will put everything on the front line juz for u..

juz like before..
everything is up to u my dear..

i know..
i'm not suppose to do things that hurt u..

not like what i have done..

but i think that is the way to see how ur responses towards me..

coz theres something important i have to see it myself..

i hope one day u understood the reason why i did all these..

i never force u to understand the real me..

but these inside of me..

someone u knew before..
whats inside is pure..

hate u not..
care is more..
offence not..
coz love is more..

how deep is ur love?

::: p/s: love & miss :::

the project X

X

today i went there..

i can feel the aura..

its something big..

but wait..

i must be patient..

its for next year..

time passes..

is it a lucky draw?

can't tell..

juz try my best..

but 1st i have to be away from others..

to find some peace..

even my fmly..

juz for a while..

sorry..

coz i need it..

but the intention is to be nothing to something..

and become from no one to someone..

hope is something that i need..

miracle is something that i want to create..

the puzzle is something i want to solve..

dear God, plz help me..

i always need U..

thank you God for showing me some path..

plz guide me.. :)

::: p/s: miracle, plz happen :::

untukmu ibu

lagu ni buat angah sayu..
angah tujukan lagu ni utk ibu..

Tertanam naluri keibuan amat mendalam
Di jiwa insan yang mendambakan kebahagiaan
Oh... ibu

Di bahumu tergalas beban
Perjalananmu penuh rintangan
Kau titipkan kasih sayang
Sejujur pengorbanan
Tak ku nafikan
Di saat kita berjauhan
Rasa ingin ku berlari
Mendakapimu penuh girang
Bak si kecil kehilangan

Kau insan penyayang
Betapa ku merindu
Lembutnya belaian ibu
Membuatku terlena

Di wajah terlukis tenang
Debar di dada kau rahsiakan
Ku pastikan dikau aman
Dikurnia sejahtera
Tak ku lupakan

Di saat kita berjauhan
Rasa ingin ku berlari
Mendakapimu penuh girang
Bak si kecil kehilangan
Tiada aku tanpa ibu
Hanya (kau) satu didunia
Bertakhta dikau dijiwaku
Kau lah ibu yang tercinta

Kau insan pengasih
Betapa aku mengharap
Hadirnya restumu ibu
Membawaku ke syurga
Bersemi belaian kasih sayang nan berpanjangan
Darimu insan yang mendoakan kebahagiaan anak-anakmu

<3 u  =)



::: p/s:
 ibu,
angah rindukan ibu..
angah syg ibu..
x kira berapa kali angah buat salah dari kecik smpai skrg pd ibu pun,
ibu slalu maafkan angah..
angah tau walau sebesar mana pun dugaan yg ditempuhi ibu tetap kuat..
bile angah call ibu slalu ckp i luv u..
buat angah rindu..
walaupun angah jauh,
ibu satu2 nya insan yg slalu ada bila angah perlukan..
angah bersyukur ada ibu yg sgt prihatin dan penyayang mcm ibu..
tp angah risau sbb sejak dua menjak ni ibu slalu sakit..
dah beberapa kali angah sendiri yg hantar ibu msok wad..
angah risau dgn kesihatan ibu..
angah hrp ibu ingat pesan angah supaya jaga kesihatan ok..
angah nk ibu slalu sht..
nnt klo angah blk kite boleh borak2, kite kua jln2 k..
angah suka borak2 dgn ibu sbb ibu slalu bercerita tanpa henti..
wlpn x henti2, tp itu yg buat angah rindu dgn ibu..hikhik..
ibu take care k!
nnt angah blk umah tau..
luv u ibu! :)  :::

hakikat bahagia

Bahagia itu dari dalam diri
Kesannya zahir rupanya maknawi
Terpendam bagai permata di dasar hati

Bahagia itu ada pada hati
Bertakhta di kerajaan diri
Terbenam bagai mutiara di lautan nurani

Bahagia itu ada di jiwa
Mahkota di singgahsana rasa
Bahagia itu adalah suatu ketenangan

Bila susah tiada gelisah
Bila miskin syukur pada Tuhan
Bila sakit tiada resah di jiwa
Bukankah Tuhan telah berfirman
Ketahuilah dengan mengingati Allah
Jiwa kan menjadi tenang

Kebahagiaan itu suatu kesyukuran
Bila kaya jadi insan pemurah
Bila berkuasa amanah
Bila berjaya tidak alpa
Bila sihat tidak lupakan Tuhan

Hakikatnya bahagia itu
Adalah ketenangan
Bila hati mengingati Tuhan

Semua insan kan mengerti
Maksud terseni Ilahi
Itulah zikir yang hakiki 

 note:

bahagia itu bkn pada harta yg byk

 tetapi pada jiwa yg tenang

dan ketenangan itu dtg nya dr Allah SWT..
 

semoga semua insan kn berbahagia di dunia & akhirat
amin...

=)