Paperweight

juz came back home from singapore and suddenly i remember this 1 song..but this song, paperweight is killing me..i`m so missing her...ohh my..what to do..juz keep playing this song again and again and again...






::p/s: i want to told u i`m going to singapore that nite when i called..but suddenly u igored my call and off ur fon..and your mood is not okay..and i`m afraid that if told u, u would be more stress coz u already been so sad dat nite.. + u got exam on saturday..i dun want to disturb ur stdy..i`m so sorry..but even i`m far away from u, i never stop praying for ur success..ya Allah..only U knows.. ::

happy, where r u? =(

I WILL arise and go now, and go to Innisfree,
And a small cabin build there, of clay and wattles made;
Nine bean rows will I have there, a hive for the honey bee,
And live alone in the bee-loud glade.
And I shall have some peace there, for peace comes dropping slow,
Dropping from the veils of the morning to where the cricket sings;
There midnight's all a glimmer, and noon a purple glow,
And evening full of the linnet's wings.
I will arise and go now, for always night and day
I hear lake water lapping with low sounds by the shore;
While I stand on the roadway, or on the pavements gray,
I hear it in the deep heart's core.

like this poem..i need to find peace..somewhere..maybe its better if i`m away for a while..for peace dropping slow..i can`t feel anything right now..i can`t even make myself happy..plz don't judge me..i juz need peace rite now..huwaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa~~~~

ish..jap2..
KENAPA TAYAR BELAKANG KENDERAAN SELALU BOTAK DULU DARIPADA TAYAR DEPAN?
SEBABNYA IALAH DIA SELALU MEMIKIRKAN KENAPA DIA TAK DAPAT MEMECUT TAYAR HADAPAN..


:: p/s: xde kaitan kn? hehehe..saje nk happy2 je.. =) ::

only U knows

Even the Prophet, the most beloved to Allah, was greatly tested and he endured every moment of it..Who am i to complain? ya Allah, only You knows..after everything You gave me..lots of it..syukur Alhamdulillah...

kerjaan

ehemm2..cite pasal kje ni, dah mcm2 kje dah penah aku buat..dari jd pencacai kje tukang(kje kontrek), smpai la jd guard, cashier, tukang buat air, chekgu, waiter, agen topup dan lain2....cite2 aku opkos la nk jd pilot..bkn jual pen jenama pilot tu tau..hehe..klo jd usahawan pun cam best..tp mst maw modal yg byk..mne nk carik modal yg besar2 tu en..laen la klo fmly aku cop duit..haha..tp byk dugaan yg mendatang untuk mencapai cite2 ku ini..cme nk cite skrg tgh cuti sbb flying skool aku buat hal..tp aku xnk cite pasal skolah la, tp nk cite psal aku dpt kje..aku dpt kje!! yeay!! tp kje ape? 

hmm...dlu blaja pnah kt pusat asasi upm..tbe2 beberapa minggu yg lalu member aku yg baik hati yg blaja kt asasi dlu bernama Muhamad Zakuan ni call..apekehey nye tbe2 dia call aku..rpe2 nye ade kje..cam tau2 plak aku tgh xde kje dan sedang mencari..klo kje, berfaedah la cket en..drpd asyek tdo kt umah..haha..tp kt mana?? oo..pusat asasi upm~..huh?? tmpt blaja aku dlu ke?? haha..bile aku dtg sane, dorg suro isi borang..staff kt ctu majoriti knal aku..almaklum lah, famous kot dulu..jd artis murahan..hahaha..aku merupakan bekas vocalist kumpulan sparrow iaitu band gabungan pelajar asasi, lecturer, dan staff asasi..klo bile buat psembahan, mmg muka org pemalu ni la yg naek atas pentas..hahaha..iyeke aku mcm tu dulu?? segannye.....+___+ haha..pernah dlu aku dilantik jd cameraman utk pusat asasi jgk(buktinye aku dpt sijil pengiktirafan dr pusat asasi ok~..haha)..eh..best plak bile terkenang kn tmpt blaja aku dulu..wlpn blaja kt ctu hanye setahun setengah, tp pengalaman yg aku dpt mmg byk!! blja tanam2 sayur sayuran, tanam jagung, tanam buah melon, blja psal ikan, padi, telor ayam, lembu2, herba2 dan mcm2 lg..best3x!! =) eh..tajuk aku psal kerja la..bkn pngalaman dulu2..haishh..melancong jauh plak..

suatu hari dorg panggil aku intviu kje..aku smpai awal bawak motor sendiri ke pusat asasi tu..tbe2 aku tersedar, "eh, mana beg aku??" aku tertinggal segala mcm sijil kt dlm beg kat rumah..padahal intviu aku dah nk mula..abes lahh!!! =( pastu tros aku ckp, "akak, bg sy 20minit, sy nk pergi blk amek sijil ngn patah blk sini sbb sijil sy tertinggal..klo org panggil nama akak tlg panggil org laen dulu yea..hehe" ok..pastu rempit la ape lg!! dah smpai blk kt ctu tu jantung dup dap dup dap..aku tgk ade org dlm bilik intviu tu, dan ade sorg lg tgh tggu giliran nk kne intviu..fuhh..seb baek akak tu ltak nama aku last utk kne panggil intviu..(padahal mle2 nama aku first..hahaha)..pastu staff2 kt ctu panggil aku minum kt dlm ofis tu..aku sorg je ke dorg ajak? nape x ajak yg tgh tggu intviu tu skali..xpela..dah dorg ajak, aku pergi je la..mayb sbb dorg knal aku..nyum2..konyang den~ sdap bubur yg dorg bg tu..rezki~..haha..pastu smpai giliran aku intviu...alamak..cuak sehh..pastu bile intviu, org tu ckp dye knal ayah aku..pastu tros hilang suasana intviu yg cuak2 td, jd mcm borak2 biase plak pastu..boleh pulak siap dia offer nk tlg aku kje ngn kwn dia kt flying club plak lg..hahaha..pastu dye tnye, nk kje jd ape? eh...bkn satu jawatan lab assistant je ke dorg offer? rupe2 nye ade nk gne part time lab assistant, pembantu tadbir dan laen2 jgk..huhu..kje part time, mst la yg sng2 je..aku tulis panjang2 lebar ni mcm gempak je td en? padahal xde ape pun..excited dpt kje je tlbey..hahaha..last2 aku dpt call ari jumaat smlm, aku dpt kje jaga bhgn filing student2 baru kt ctu..mula kerja isnin nnt..fuhh..dgr mcm sng, harap2 mmg sng la..hehe.. inilah gmba pekerja yg rajin & baek hati ni dulu..rajin ke?? haha

:: kerja baek2 k! nnt klo kje bagus org pun suka..kn kn? =) hehe..ok choww~ =)) ::

=)

 

u are stronger than u seem,

braver than u believe,

and smarter than you think

 

 

pencil & eraser

PENCIL : u know, i`m really sorry..

ERASER : for what? u didn`t do anything wrong.

PENCIL  : i`m sorry coz u get hurt because of me..whenever i make a mistake, you're always there to erase it..but as u make my mistake vanish, u lose part of yourself..u get smaller and smaller everytime..

ERASER : no worries..u see, i was made to help u whenever u need..eventhough one of these days, i know i`ll be gone and u have to replace me with a new one..i`m actually happy with my job..i can make ur life easier..so dun be sad..plz do your very best answering the exam and make sure got good result..coz if u did it, even if i`m gone, knowing ur success could make me happy too..good luck k!! :)

kawen di alam maya??

mlm smlm baring2 smbil tgk tv..tup2 dah tertdo kt sofa ruang tamu rumah..sekali tbe2 aku da tiba di alam maya..mcm cite tron plak nk masok2 alam maya..identified yourself, program..i`m not a program, i`m a user la~!! haha..

tbe2 ajaib aku dgr abg aku ckp dye nk kawen..aku tumpang gembira lah sbb abg aku bakal jd suami org..tp tbe2 ibu ckp, "alang2 kite wat skali lah..angah dah ready ke? kawan angah dr skola rendah tu ibu suka tgk dia..lawa orang nye..kita langsung kan skali tros je la k.." ibu nk tros anta rombongan kt pihak prempuan.."huh??? angah kawen? btol ke bu?? dgn puteri idaman angah tu?? angah ON sajoss!" ckp mmg senang kn?

aku pun tggu kt umah..skali tbe2 ibu blk dr rombongan, ibu ckp, "angah, besok pagi siap..tros nikah..x mau tggu lama2..pihak pmpuan dah stuju wat esok pg..dah stuju?? aku pun tkejot berok la!! giler ape tros wat esok! ape pun x siap lg..adeyhh..ape bnde ni..camane nk jmput org? camane nk ckp kt kwn2? aku nk pakai ape esok? bile aku nk bli baju? brg ape pun x bli lg..kelam kabut smua!! =(

oleh sebab terlalu risau nk kawen, berpeluh peluh aku pikir semua bnda..ingtkn badan panas dah demam dah..klo ade masa seminggu ke, boleh la prepare ape2..ni tros nk wat esok..kawen ni bkn mcm bday party tau nk wat surprise2! tolonggggggggggggg!!!!!!!! pastu tbe2 tersedar..bju lencun abes bkn sbb kencing dalam sluar, tp sbb bpeluh peluh tdo xde kipas!! dengan tv masih on..lampu pun on..langsir tingkap terbukak..ape daaa..aku mimpi td..tp bgun awal arini..mungkin ade hikmahnye..nk kjot aku wat qiamullail kot pg2 kul 4 ni..haha..doa byk2 supaya x kawen mcm ni..biar la ade tempoh masa supaya boley prepare majlis dgn lbey baek..hehe :)

maybe aku mimpi sbb aku terlalu rindu pada si dia..maaf klo rindu ku terbawa bawa dlm mimpi..sy mmg rindu awk..mmg kita pun dah lama x jumpa..tp sy xnk awk risau psal sy..sy nk awk sntiasa bahagia..sy harap awk disana sht & gembira..i miss u..

p/s:: i dunno when will ur exam start..n when will it end..u never told me..so i wish u the best of luck!! chaiyok2!! study smart k!! gambattene!! =)