a missing day

its suppose to be the special day..

i really wanna say to u,

happy anniversary dear..

i miss u..

but..

shes not mine anymore..

i cannot be selfish..

its for her own happiness..

i really wanna see her happy..

i do..

coz i really love her..

and i actually dun want she become depress bcoz of me..

sincerely,

of coz i wanna be the causes of her smiling..

and her happiness..

but it seems like i'm not the one who always in her heart..

to always be the guy that she trust..

and she admire..

not anymore..

its my bad..

i'm sorry my lovely miracle..

i have to make u hate me..

coz i want to test u..

its not something that i like by making u hate me..

i want to see wether u really understood me after 12 years of friendship..

by knowing me everything from inside and outside..

do u really think i will suddenly become a bad guy when i'm the one who care for u and give my love when u needed before?

do u felt it is so weird or u really thought i would suddenly easily change..

or still believing the man that will put everything on the front line juz for u..

juz like before..
everything is up to u my dear..

i know..
i'm not suppose to do things that hurt u..

not like what i have done..

but i think that is the way to see how ur responses towards me..

coz theres something important i have to see it myself..

i hope one day u understood the reason why i did all these..

i never force u to understand the real me..

but these inside of me..

someone u knew before..
whats inside is pure..

hate u not..
care is more..
offence not..
coz love is more..

how deep is ur love?

::: p/s: love & miss :::

the project X

X

today i went there..

i can feel the aura..

its something big..

but wait..

i must be patient..

its for next year..

time passes..

is it a lucky draw?

can't tell..

juz try my best..

but 1st i have to be away from others..

to find some peace..

even my fmly..

juz for a while..

sorry..

coz i need it..

but the intention is to be nothing to something..

and become from no one to someone..

hope is something that i need..

miracle is something that i want to create..

the puzzle is something i want to solve..

dear God, plz help me..

i always need U..

thank you God for showing me some path..

plz guide me.. :)

::: p/s: miracle, plz happen :::

untukmu ibu

lagu ni buat angah sayu..
angah tujukan lagu ni utk ibu..

Tertanam naluri keibuan amat mendalam
Di jiwa insan yang mendambakan kebahagiaan
Oh... ibu

Di bahumu tergalas beban
Perjalananmu penuh rintangan
Kau titipkan kasih sayang
Sejujur pengorbanan
Tak ku nafikan
Di saat kita berjauhan
Rasa ingin ku berlari
Mendakapimu penuh girang
Bak si kecil kehilangan

Kau insan penyayang
Betapa ku merindu
Lembutnya belaian ibu
Membuatku terlena

Di wajah terlukis tenang
Debar di dada kau rahsiakan
Ku pastikan dikau aman
Dikurnia sejahtera
Tak ku lupakan

Di saat kita berjauhan
Rasa ingin ku berlari
Mendakapimu penuh girang
Bak si kecil kehilangan
Tiada aku tanpa ibu
Hanya (kau) satu didunia
Bertakhta dikau dijiwaku
Kau lah ibu yang tercinta

Kau insan pengasih
Betapa aku mengharap
Hadirnya restumu ibu
Membawaku ke syurga
Bersemi belaian kasih sayang nan berpanjangan
Darimu insan yang mendoakan kebahagiaan anak-anakmu

<3 u  =)



::: p/s:
 ibu,
angah rindukan ibu..
angah syg ibu..
x kira berapa kali angah buat salah dari kecik smpai skrg pd ibu pun,
ibu slalu maafkan angah..
angah tau walau sebesar mana pun dugaan yg ditempuhi ibu tetap kuat..
bile angah call ibu slalu ckp i luv u..
buat angah rindu..
walaupun angah jauh,
ibu satu2 nya insan yg slalu ada bila angah perlukan..
angah bersyukur ada ibu yg sgt prihatin dan penyayang mcm ibu..
tp angah risau sbb sejak dua menjak ni ibu slalu sakit..
dah beberapa kali angah sendiri yg hantar ibu msok wad..
angah risau dgn kesihatan ibu..
angah hrp ibu ingat pesan angah supaya jaga kesihatan ok..
angah nk ibu slalu sht..
nnt klo angah blk kite boleh borak2, kite kua jln2 k..
angah suka borak2 dgn ibu sbb ibu slalu bercerita tanpa henti..
wlpn x henti2, tp itu yg buat angah rindu dgn ibu..hikhik..
ibu take care k!
nnt angah blk umah tau..
luv u ibu! :)  :::

hakikat bahagia

Bahagia itu dari dalam diri
Kesannya zahir rupanya maknawi
Terpendam bagai permata di dasar hati

Bahagia itu ada pada hati
Bertakhta di kerajaan diri
Terbenam bagai mutiara di lautan nurani

Bahagia itu ada di jiwa
Mahkota di singgahsana rasa
Bahagia itu adalah suatu ketenangan

Bila susah tiada gelisah
Bila miskin syukur pada Tuhan
Bila sakit tiada resah di jiwa
Bukankah Tuhan telah berfirman
Ketahuilah dengan mengingati Allah
Jiwa kan menjadi tenang

Kebahagiaan itu suatu kesyukuran
Bila kaya jadi insan pemurah
Bila berkuasa amanah
Bila berjaya tidak alpa
Bila sihat tidak lupakan Tuhan

Hakikatnya bahagia itu
Adalah ketenangan
Bila hati mengingati Tuhan

Semua insan kan mengerti
Maksud terseni Ilahi
Itulah zikir yang hakiki 

 note:

bahagia itu bkn pada harta yg byk

 tetapi pada jiwa yg tenang

dan ketenangan itu dtg nya dr Allah SWT..
 

semoga semua insan kn berbahagia di dunia & akhirat
amin...

=)

ku pohon petunjukMu

ya Allah..

tlg kuatkan aku..

aku hampir hilang arah..

hasutan syaitan itu sungguh bahaya..

gusar akan kesesatan dipenghujungnya..

aku takut dgn dunia yg penuh dgn penipuan ini..

ya Allah..

sesungguhnya ujianMu ini terlalu berat buatku..

adakah Engkau mahu menunjukkan sesuatu padaku?

masa demi masa aku belajar tentang kebenaran..

kebenaran yg kadangkala ku rasa x perlu aku tahu..

tetapi kebenaran dlm realiti kehidupan itu kenapa ia sungguh menyakitkan..

sehingga aku menggigil setiap hari mengenangkannya..

ya Allah..

kenapa wujud mereka yg seperti itu disekelilingku?

adakah aku diciptakan utk mengetahui semua itu agar aku boleh mengubah mereka?

atau ape yg perlu aku lakukan?

tlg tunjukkan jln Mu ya Allah..

sesungguhnya hambaMu ini insan yg daif dan lemah..

hambaMu ini sgt memerlukan petunjuk dariMu..

agar terus berada dlm bimbingan dan perlindunganMu..

janganlah Engkau pesongkan hatiku setelah Engkau berikan petunjuk dan hidayahMu ya Allah..

dan kurniakanlah aku rahmat dari sisiMu..

Drowning

Don't pretend you're sorry,
I know you're not.
You know you got the power,
To make me weak inside.

And girl you leave me breathless,
But it's ok.
'Cause you are my survival,
Now hear me say.
I can't imagine life without your love.
And even forever don't seem like long enough.

'Cause every time I breathe I take you in,
And my heart beats again
Baby I can't help it.
You keep me drowning in your love.
And every time I try to rise above,
I'm swept away by love.
Baby I can't help it,
You keep me drowning in your love.

Maybe I'm a drifter,
Maybe not.
'Cause I have known the safety,
Of falling free into your arms.
I don't need another lifeline,
It's not for me.
It's only you can save me.
Oh, can't you see?

I can't imagine life without your love.
And even forever don't seem like long enough.
(It don't seem like long enough, yeah)

'Cause every time I breathe I take you in,
And my heart beats again
Baby I can't help it.
You keep me drowning in your love.

And every time I try to rise above,
I'm swept away by love.
Baby I can't help it,
You keep me drowning in your love.
Go on pull me under.
Cover me with dreams.
You know I can't resist.
'Cause you're the air that I breathe!

'Cause every time I breathe I take you in,
(Every time I breathe, yeah)
And my heart beats again
Baby I can't help it.
(Baby I can't help it)
You keep me drowning in your love.
And every time I try to rise above,
I'm swept away by love.
Baby I can't help it,
You keep me drowning in your love

Baby I can't help it,
You keep me drowning in your love.
Baby drowning.
Got me drowning.
Keep me drowning in your love.

Baby I can't help it.
(Can't help it, can't help it no no.)
Got me drowning.
I can't imagine life without your love.
And even forever don't seem like long enough.

'Cause every time I breathe I take you in,
(I do)
And my heart beats again
(Oh yeah)
Baby I can't help it.
(Baby I can't help it)
You keep me drowning in your love.
And every time I try to rise above,

(Got me drowning)
I'm swept away by love.
Baby I can't help it,
You keep me drowning in your love.

::: p/s: really miss u :::

besties :)

what day is today? its malaysia day! hehe..but its a month already..eid celebration is going to an end..thanks to all my friend who came to my house..esspecially my besties..umar and reymi..long time no meeting u both..u guys growing so well..and u guys really awesome! we having fun, eating, lepaking & sharing lots of story..but now everyone of us going back to what we're doing.. :)

reymi, u r the most advance of all..always got straight A's..after primary school, u when to Sains Alam Shah, then PASUM, and UTM, and now u hv become the engineer of Petronas in Kerteh..u really a great person man! :))

umar, u always become a leader..after primary school, u when to Sains Hulu Selangor, then Ambang Asuhan Jepun UM ( i was suppose to go there too because i have basic japanese in school..but i made a crazy choice until now..lol ), and now u had flied back to japan..finishing ur last sem as mechanical eng student..gambattene! but what is awesome is when u said, u already got a job even u haven't finish ur stdy..a company already propose u and need u..haha..so damn lucky! i'm happy for u..=)

and as for me, is still a secret..nxt year when we meet, we'll see how k..lol ;)

 me with umar

reymi, whats with the funny face..lol

11 years ago..

reymi standing with the blue tie..

me sat down with the blue uniform with umar beside me wearing the red tie..

everyone is so cute! :)

my friend, 

men is not from mars..we always came from ur mom's tummy..but be like a sun, who burns itself for the universe..or be like a moon who lights the path in darkest night..everyday even if we are apart, even we are anywhere part of the globe, we'll see the same sun, the same moon..so see the beautiful sun and moon urself! haha..remember our friendship while appreciate the God creation..ok..adeus! :)